A Strange and Beautiful Experience of Compassion

Christina Frei Uncategorized

There was a shamanic workshop at a local yoga studio a couple weeks ago.  The two facilitators are masters of creating sanctuary, and as I entered and smelled the sage burning, I felt my subtle internal defenses drop.  Sometimes, you don’t even know you have defenses until it’s safe to let them fall. 

With some intense breath work, these two women asked us to release old patterns over the course of an hour.  As I let go, I saw several grey-blue towers, metallic and foreboding, towering over me, in my mind’s eye.  (My heightened intuition comes from my regular Generosity Practice, by the way)

As I kept breathing, I saw these towers everywhere, in every town, in every country, like cell phone towers. The sense I got was that they were holding up civilization. They were feats of engineering that held everything together.  But there was a cruelty to them. They brought stability without acknowledging humanity.  It was uncomfortable to witness them.

After much this processing and releasing, the facilitators asked us to re-ground ourselves, to re-stabilize.  This meant connecting ourselves to the center of the earth. It took me a moment, but soon I was aware of a towering presence of compassion, not only grounding to the center of the earth, but towering as tall as the sky. Was it Jesus? It felt that way. As someone who left the Catholic Church 20+ years ago, I have been consciously creating my own connection to this compassionate presence, so I shouldn’t have been surprised.

What struck me was a quiet message I received from him. “I’m here for you. I’m all you need.”  It was as though those cruel blue-grey towers held all our fear in place, when actually, there was no need for them. Not anymore. With this radiant, towering, grounding presence, I could just let go.  It was so beautiful, I sobbed loudly in a room full of people, which is not something I do very often.

It was only later that I realized I had seen those blue-grey towers 4 months earlier in meditation, only the Jesus presence hadn’t arrived yet.

Here’s something to try.  Take a step back and recognize where you have blue-grey towers holding everything in place, cutting you off from your humanity.  Can you feel them? Can you see them in your mind’s eye? What would it be like to nourish a profound, compassionate presence as a new, stabilizing force?

I’ll leave you to it.

And if you’d like to see what it’s like to re-create your business in this radiance and generosity, let’s talk.